my credit card bill was insane last month
and thus my mum has blocked my card.
damnn no more credit card but ohwells it seems like it
isnt save to use a credit card in the states.
i had weird charges charged and my mum is panicking.

was looking back at my old photos back in spore with tyl & boney.
i miss yall so much ):
sighs.

and i think i look so haggard & tired now.
damnn the late night shifts & tonnes of reports.
shifts on thanksgiving week is gonna be crazy but gosh the money!
i need the money since my holiday is gonna cost a bomb.
looking at cheap hotels in NYC now. and fuck it aint cheap at all.
and to think that i've got almost a month in the states with only alvina goh.
the cost is gonna be darn high.
do pray that money rains on me somehow.

stress. but on a lighter note, i have been able to talk to jj two days in a row now.
though each talk lasts for like an hour.
but still every minute counts & i'm really happy (:
i love you!

There was a really beautiful rainbow outside my balcony the other day.
Its a really old picture, it was taken perhaps one month ago.
oh my time flies, and i'm gonna be back real soon.

Mixed feelings altogether. I do miss my life back in spore.
But i do love my current lifestyle here right now.
Although i have the world's most disgusting shifts of 630pm to 230am daily.
which results in my dark circles and huge eyebags.
i really do look haggard, at least i do feel so.
But i love working, i love my job.
i love making animal balloons.
i never thought i'll ever say that in my entire life but i really do.
 Check it out yo!




alright it may not look an great but it was my first bear and dog!
haha made one for alvina, summer and crystal yesterday.
and i learned to make swans yesterday! gosh love it!
giving a pair of swans to newlyweds are the bestest (:
its so darn sweet!

alright off to do my damn assignments!
i've got so many reports due this week
and i'm going shopping again later!

OH yes, i had assam fish just now. haha alvina and i cooked that for lunch.
she brought 4 packets of that paste! yayy!
love it! it feels so homely again.
we really do feel at home.
and i always have my fav char mee too!
so everything has been great.
(:

But i miss yall all alot okay!!
 

Gosh i been having so much fun with Crystal. Shui Jing!
haha no she isnt from china!
shes one crazy kickass american bitch.
i love her so damn much.
she goes wa i nee !
haha thats her wo aini.
how adorable! anyway food & WINE was awesome thanks to her.

anyway she said this to me before i left her car yesterday,
it was so random but it really left a impact on me.
she was like damnn i'm gonna miss you.
i was like woah. fuck yeah i'm gonna miss you too.
and she is so dead serious about coming to spore!
fuck yeah i'm so excited! ((:
i hope she gets involved in singfest and all and come here for free!

anyway she has been sucha sweetheart,
sending me to work and picking me up from work as well.

gosh i dont wanna go back no more.
 

how long can something so beautiful last?
the negative impact of distance & the time difference seems to be
affecting me quite abit. I'm losing faith.

the bottom line is that we are

apart.



whatever it is,
i still do love you.
 

the guys came over & made a mess! haha okay i'm kidding.
well they came & whipped up a meal. everyone finally had rice & some chinese food.
too bad i had none since i cooked pasta earlier on already.
was calling everyone but nobody answered, so ohwells i cooked pasta for myself.

work was darn tiring today. i felt like collapsing & my throat was hoarse.
one check-in after another, with less than a min interval between each.
it was really busy today. but apparently it is always like that.
each time my trainer announces that the magical express arrives, it means
more arrivals & the lines in the queue becomes longer & longer.
it was snake-like.

oh gosh i needa crash soon & quit falling asleep in front of my trainer.
haha it is really embarrassing.
alright i shall have entries with pictures soon!
i know boring words look! haha
anyway halloween party next week!!!
GOSH EXCITING! MICKEY'S NOT SO SCARY HALLOWEEN PARTYYY!! (:
 

attended advanced hospitality at 8am this morning.it was freaking early i swear!
despite attending the class at patterson classroom#6 which is one block away from my apartment,
we were still late! haha amanda only got her ass outta bed at like 7am?
haha no wonder right. so the lessons were boring but the students were cool.
Brazilians, americans, chinese, taiwanese, south africa & many more.
it was truly an international class. haha

so we headed home & rushed to chatham's busstop to catch the bus to vista way for wendy's.
shared buffalo wings with alvina & it sucked so bad.
headed to florida mall with tricia and alvina to visit F21, ae, vs and many more
haha and it was way awesome! we were frantically shopping.
we finally stopped when we were dying of thirst & hunger.
shared some ribs/chicken meat combo thingy with the two.
it was really huge! and it was the cheapest meal we have had so far!
anyway we continued shopping till 8 plus where we had no choice but to stop!
haha because the shuttle was picking us up at 830pm sharp.
i swear its super sharp! the shuttles here are driven by meanies who were instructed to
drive off on the dot or they will get sacked?
so i guess they do not have a choice.

alright photos will be up soon!
i needa crash right now.
social security needs me up by 445am.
who meets at 615 for such nonsense anyway.

 

awesome crepes from IHOP
international pancakes house


My all time favourite Char mee filled with broccoli and mushrooms was good.
Plus Dr. pepper, it was the bestest.
I'm all alone while everyone is away at work or at mickey's retreat like dilyse & cherie, or rotting at home/ gyming like aloy.
Anw I was simply too lazy to walk there by myself. ohwells some alone time is good.
I am talking to zz now. Its been really long since we last spoke.
haha alright perhaps a week ago? but one week seems like forever.
It seems as if months have passed. Anyway i'm happy here!
i really am. Everyone here is really friendly & nice.
and i'm so glad that i made a couple of good friends.

The situation has changed and the unexpected has happened.
haha oh gosh i make this sound so bad.
haha but seriously i never ever thought that shiting/ summerchong and i will get along so well.
she is just so damn nice & so darn retardedly funny!
she is the bravest retarded funny girl i have ever met!
she doesnt give a damn that your laughing or mocking her.
she simply loves the attention. and i swear she has the most contagious laughter.
haha i bet everyone knows her knows that.
and people here definitely knows better. right darryl kok?
HAHA darryl & her makes the best duet?
haha they will do the funniest & most retarded things, its way beyond anyone's imagination.
haha its crazy! but we love it alot when they come together.

Dilyse, whom i hardly spoke to back in school. Has also been one of those
really caring & nice ones taking care of us. and i can say that we are genuinely closer now
btw she behaves like summer's mummy.
Like seriously summer is one spoilt brat. haha

zz was saying that i should write a book on the drama that has happened here.
haha perhaps i should! the twists & unexpected outcomes makes the story here really interesting.

lastly, although i really love it here and do not wish to go back to singapore.
I still do miss the family & love ones back there.

HELLO EVERYONE!! 
ORLANDO HAS BEEN TREATING ME WELL !
ITS BRIGHT & SUNNY HERE!
CHERIE & ALVINA ARE BURNT & HAVE GROWN TANNER?
ME TOOO! JUST A LITTLE NOT TO WORRY (:

so the 29 hours flight was torturous. Most the of it was spend sitting with chihwee, darryl & alvina.
so that was good, they made the long flights so much better.
i hate long flights.
sg to  narita to detriot and finally to orlando by midnight.
I have come a long way.

Alright shall update soon!
more shopping & cleaning up of the apartment!
off to pack my room, do my laundry & off to darryl kok's!! (:
 

i'm officially left with almost a week. my god time is really passing way too fast. I'm still left with asm on thurs.
After which i'm gonna be freeee! like finally, the end of examinations till disney i guess.
haha so i guess mugging and assignments will begin once i start schooling in disney.
what a cruel and tragic cycle! Anyway my last days in Singapore have been well planned and jam packed with endless dates!
I wish i had more time, i wish i didnt have to be last minute and having so little time to spend with everyone.

Damnn i should have planned my time well. 

Emergency Visa Appointment at the US embassy at 930am.
Which is gonna result in me forgoing my driving test at 1145am.
Oh wells like what chih wee said, I ought to know which is more critical.
But well i been preparing so hard this time round,i feel so confident
in passing this time round. I wanna drive in US!
i wanna all around US!!! dammnn
I guess its all fated and just not meant to be.
I do feel bad that i cant spend my last days here driving my fellow tyl & boney around.
I know how badly they are wishing that i'll pass.
Anyway sleepover with them on friday! and maybe with XTT too (:

Massage & Facial with shuyi tomorrow.
And Iguana with Alyssa in the night.
Sleepover on Friday.
Lunch with Wenyao on Saturday.

Hmm i do really hope to meet tanjeannie! and mabeleemay too!
I did promise them and i really hope we will be able to meet up before i leave for 6 months.





aww goodbye & so long loves.






 

 

 

well i'm left with 13days.
which means that i'm left with less than 2 weeks.
the exams officially ends on the 3rd sep.
and i'm leaving on the 8th sep.
simply awesome. I'm not gonna be left with much time.
But i do wish to meet those whom i'm seriously gonna miss.
i know sometimes i do speak like as if i'm not going to come back.
haha oh wells who knows, perhaps.
Life is way short. No one knows whats gonna happen next.
Too many people have been passing on.
I called it unexpected deaths. These deaths are the ones that make you realised
how vulnerable and sudden our lives are.
and how truly precious time is.
unlimited
 

The unrealistic deadlines.
The last minute preparations.
Monotonous daily routine.

= dead empty space here.

Believing in what you see?
Now that should not be the case. Should it?
making assumptions based on stuff that you have seen.
with no questions thrown at me initially,
obviously i assumed that i've got your approval.
The green light.

But now i am misunderstood.
I feel upset and disappointed that there was no trust to begin with.
You never had to worry,
so why now?
I wonder.
Why don't you continue with just you being "that" normal being in my life.
The one that has to be there for the sake of it all,
being there because you owe a duty of care towards me.
Ignore it all and please go back to the ignorant being that
doesn't give a damn fuck about my life.
i swear i'll love you to death for that.

 

       

Lastly, thank you one and all for making my nineteen birthday a really special one (:
yall always do anyway but somehow this year it seems much more meaningful
i guess its just the simplicity of it that made it really special.
 

late night talks with the brother, now that is truly rare these days.
With the both of us being so busy leading our own lives,
our bedrooms may only be 3ft apart, but somehow it seems more like miles.
i like talks with him, although it is just him speaking like 99% of the time,
haha but it is just great knowing that he actually wants me to know whats going on.
it makes me feel that
i still do play a role of a big sister,
and that he still needs one.

(:


 

I know this is wrong.
spending my time in this empty space is a mistake.
i need to get back on track.
get that momentum back.
my projects are waiting for me.
to worsen it all, i am collating for the first time.
  Now this makes me miss the holidays so damn much.
i am dying to get out of Singapore.
It is getting way too hot.
33 degrees and more?!?!
now that is way too much for me to handle.

I hate School,
I hate being here,
I hate now.


 

Spending my sunday afternoon in town,
now that is a really rare.
the massive chaos, the huge crowds,
the heat of 34 degrees,
that worsens everything.
Sundays in isolation,
now that is my ideal Sunday.
as boring as it seems, i really like it.
With my current favourite book, Flights of Love
and forest berry tea.
Staying in bed with all that,
Splendid.

But i guess having caramel machiatto on the house now
isn't all that bad. haha i guess i shall make do with that.
alright back to my tutorials.

gosh i was so bent on uploading photos from hk & macau to facebook!
haha but i guess that was impossible since i spend an hour or more
extracting and viewing of photos from shuyi's thumbdrive.
haha i seriously had no idea that we really took so manymany photos!?!
my eyes have never ever gotten tired & teary looking at photos.
haha but i guess we really had way too many.
plus the collating of photos i had to do for some surprise as well.
my poor eyes )): haha i just hope i dont go blind.
anyway i shall do it really soon,
for everyone shall see dearest kuku shu's awesome photos!
HAHAHA  :D

 

imperfectly perfect


dig it.