so I just caught the movie Bride Wars for the first time.
And it hit me, do I have a bestfriend who actually knows me better than I know myself?
Well I know my boyfriend does and he is my bestfriend :)
but still there are simply stuff which you can only count on a girlfriend for.
I guess this is reality.

It's common to have more than one bestest girlfriends, since everyone is in cliques these days.
But who is that very ONE that I can truly count on?
I mean like exclusively.
I definitely have awesome girlfriends who have stood by me all my life,
went through the low and highs with me.
and I'm truly thankful for that, you know i love you girls so much.
and Alyssa if you happen to read this,
you know you're one of them.
Well Charlene, I love you too! just that alyssa does randomly read this space! 
haha so yeah, i thought i should let her know how much she means to me,
although she's miles away.

So anyway that's my thought of the day.
and i guess i have something to think about now. 

After the wonderful staycation weekend with the disney buds,
I realised why things have never really been the same since.
Friendships/Relationships with my fellow friends back in Singapore
have been different. I have grown closer to some, and drift further apart from others.

So I've changed, I blame no one anymore.
I shouldn't even have done so to begin with.
I had no right to have ever done so.
I'm really glad to see those that I have drifted apart from are happier than they use to be.
I really am, because deep down you will always be one of my bestfriends.
And seeing you receiving so much love and happiness everyday makes me really happy as well.

<3 

The spark between us diminishes/dies down
as years, months, days and hours go by.

it's almost gone or maybe not but whatever it is
it's a sad sight. 

my mind and soul are all worn out.
why can't life be simple,
but if it was so somehow it meant that it will be boring
but yet individuals who lead simple lives are seem to be the most blissful of the lot. 
When you're satisfied with the simple things in life, 
you find pleasure and comfort easily.
Can things ever be simple, interesting, pleasurable, secure and yet 
ever so satisfying and blissful at the same time. 

Till the day i feel this way towards you,
then i'll know that everything is right and that we are meant to be.

Pure happiness and joy beams from within.
well said, cos i don't see that no more.
It's was real then, i look at myself in recent pictures and i don't see myself smiling like that anymore
was it because i was at the happiest place on earth hence the smile?
it's been 2 yrs now and yet,
i dont see myself smiling like that anymore. 

 whenever i see some email notifications or friend request on facebook from you, or like whenever someone mentions your name, it never fails to make me sick right to my stomach. you used to be my favourite aunt, the one who never fails to read me bedtime stories,
one who piggyback me when i was young and rushed me to the hospital

because i was having a high fever,

one who always told me not to be afraid because you're here.

 

But everything has changed.

As you grew older, you became more childish
and unreasonable.

making false assumptions about me,

and making it seemed like i was a bad influence on your children.

seriously? why do you even bother to talk to me.

just leave me alone,

and let's just be strangers.

 

i'm definitely happier off without you.

 

 

 

timeless.
priceless.

certain things in life will always remain the same,
no matter how hard you try,
nothing is ever gonna change.

it's time to face it,
and suck it up. 




 

 boyfriends over friends.
hopefully i'll never be like that.
and maybe because i never wanna be like that,
sometimes i really feel torn between both.
however, if you look at it realistically, 
guys can be such dicks,
whereas your girlfriends will always be there for you till the end of time.

so maybe it's time to realize that girlfriends are equally important. 

we may love many people throughout our lives,
but there will only be one particular person
whom we love most.

<3